everybody's always in my head| JENN!

[dallas indigo starr]

every meal he'd eaten before midday just sat in his stomach, with this urge to just get out. he'd feel so sick he was dizzy, and so close to just passing out. but he was there for jenn, his girlfriend, for the birth of his baby. looking over at kamden and ko, he shook as they gave him the thumbs up, and dallas' father wiggled his way to his son's side, rubbing his back. we're so totally fuckin' proud of 'im, ain't that right, kids? ko and kamden both nodded in sync, and dallas whimpered. he was only sixteen - he couldn't look after a baby!
then the doors opened, and dallas clung to his father as an attempt to help him stand. his legs were like jelly, he was shaking under his own weight and he'd broken into a cold sweat. the types you get during the flu.
"dallas starr, could you come this way?" that wasn't supposed to happen. didn't doctors bounce about and announce in a scream that the thing that was going to clamp your future down had just been born, and they felt sorry for you? dallas just stood here, before kamden took his hand and smiled weakly, tugging him after the doctor.
they passed dallas what looked like a small pile of towels, but then he caught sight of what it was exactly that was covered. and it was the most beautiful thing in the world. his baby. his world, as of now. didn't most babies cry? didn't they atleast breathe?! then it hit dallas why his daughter wasn't even moving. he whimpered, everything the doctors said was a blur, and his legs felt like they were about to snap, his eyes closed tight. he heard jenn call his name, three or four times. she'd sounded like she had been crying.
this wasn't supposed to happen, it was all wrong. passing his little girl, lifeless, but still his, back to the doctor, he turnt and ran, as fast as his legs would carry him, before heading straight out the hospital, he didn't know where he was going- and probably wouldn't have stopped until he was back at school, he would have found violet and cuddled her, and cried until he fell asleep. but there was a hand on his shoulder, slowing him into a pause. he turnt and saw kamden, and instead just hugged his little brother, and burst into tears.

"jennnnnnifffeeerrrr," dallas whimpered. "jennnnndingooo," watching her with a small, childish pout, he reached out his hand to bat her playfully, before sitting back and pulling his legs up, crossing them on the chair. he looked at the drink infront of him, grabbing it and bringing it up to his mouth, taking a small sip and deciding it was still too hot. frowning, he twisted his wedding ring around his finger absent mindedly, humming some song that managed to jam it's way into his head on the car ride this morning. "don't you hate it..." he pulled his ring off, and then back on again repeatedly, grinning from ear to ear. "LOOK! ring pooooorn!" then he moved his hand to his shoulder, slipping his hand under his shirt and wincing, wishing jackie wouldn't bite as hard. seems there was always something to remember jackie by, in whatever dallas did. he liked that; the fact his husband didn't have to be in the same room as him just to be all over him. even if that meant agonizing wounds all over his shoulders, dallas didn't mind. jenn probably did, though, and he looked up at her again, frowning deeper.

cigarette after cigarette after cigarette; dallas was sure he'd cleared half the packet; but his brown eyes never left jennifer. he'd try and scan her for emotion; anything. she always had a way of making him try and impress her; even if they both didn't want anything to do with each other anymore. shaking, dallas reached into his pocket and pulled out yet another cigarette, lighting it and sticking it in his mouth with a small sigh. this was his sixth one today. that wouldn't be good for his voice, and as soon as that thought hit him he almost automatically coughed, resting his head on the table and sighing loudly, stubbing the cigarette in the ash tray. groaning, he lifted his head up again to stare at her.
"....jenneatsfur."

tags: emily &jenn.
notes: lmao dallas' nicknames lmao.
location: SOMEWHERE THAT SELLS DRINKS K? D<

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